This year has flew by so fast. Maybe too fast.. This reminds me that time truely is a wasting and I need to do something with it, something that makes sense other than the ordinary. It's a little challenging to figure this one out when my number 1 priority is raising my daughter. I know my main status is mother and i can always be a better mom, but how do i silance this anxiousness in my head that won't leave me to rest, which craves adrenaline and adventures. Maybe this is how my mom felt when she had to face a dilemma; either work at the traveling circus as a star performer or stay with me at my grandmas house and be a stay-at-home mom. well she chose to be a international circus artist, and perhaps as much as i like to blame her for abandonment, she was just as restless as I am today, and have been for most of my life.

Dr. Dahlia Wasfi moving speech

What is the war really about and what are fighting for.
This is why we need to protest, this war has to come to an end.

outsider

                                - France.1990

 I've lived in many parts of the world; Mongolia, Siberia, Scandinavia, Western and Eastern Europe, before I had turned 7 i had been to all these places. My parents worked in a circus as acrobats and were on a new contract in a different country every year. This is how I grew up, in a traveling circus, colorful and loud and always entertaining. There was a sense of artistic freedom, finincial independancy and fame amongs the circus people. When it was showtime I notice people get into thier characters. They had morphed from thier regular selfs to star performers conscious of hundred something people  I had watched  my parents onstage, where they presented themselves as imaginary characters, seduce the audiance and perform acrobatic tricks.  I even had a chance to travel to North Pole when we were stationed in Sweden.
When it was time for me to start school, I moved to south-east of Poland to live with my grandparents.  I lived up there till the eight grade, then my parents and I emigrated to US.  I was both sad and kind of excited.
On the first day of school, I missed my bus, tripped over a rock and fell down to the ground.
I got mud all over my new t-shirt, had to go back home and change which why I missed the bus.  My parents had to borrow a car from our friends with whom we were living with, and drove me to school.  When I finally got to school, the “living in a different reality”  hit me. Everybody was looked and sounded different from what I had been accustom to. What a trip..I asked a student for directions to my class and with eyes wide open I headed toward the building. That very first day, I met a Japanese exchange student who was a pleasure to meet. We later became friends with another exchange student, a Colombian born German, and the three of us had a blast getting to know each other.  We became good friends and made that freshman year go by so fast. Florida is beautiful if you are into tropical forests, white beaches. and giant hairy spiders ^_^  Unfortunately my parents soon announced that we were moving again, this time to California. So at the end of my freshman year, we drove from Florida to Cali. We passed through

  Alabama, Mississippi,Texas, New Mexico and Arizona...to a hot& dry, farm town in Kern County, my new home for the next 10 years. I was lucky that a very sweet girl, my besti, had just moved to there too.  We had a lot in common and before we even met in PE beginning of sophomore year, we both lived in the same apartment complex the whole summer. We had lunch together with our friends, since the day we first met, till the last day of senior year. How romantic *sigh* hehe. I love my friends J Was it destiny or coincidence,? Who knows... I wasn’t the kind of person back then, maybe because of my mixed background, that was understood right away, so for me to have found my soul sisters, is a cool thing.  Love your friends because without friends there would be no music:-) That’s a quote which leaves room for interpretation.  I know what it's like to be the outsider, to feel like you are looking at people through a glass. You want to join them and have fun with them, but you can't.  

Classical Piano

What do you see? Take this Rorschach test and let you mind decide...

Message from mother earth...we are at the end time

If you seek me out, I will be there with you....
god gives mother earth assistance to create this universe?  pretty interesting.
  

who doesn't like to be healthy :)

I can say that I've been 'blessed' and given a lot of love which I’m more than grateful for.  When I look at my daughter, I just feel blessed and thankful to have a healthy and sweet kid, I don;t ever want totake that for granted.  No family is perfect, we all face difficulties, fight through obstacles and deal with struggles, but a family who cares, forgives each other and knows how to laugh together, develops a long lasting special bond and that's the kind of a family that makes us feel safe and secure. Don’t take that for granted if you have it.  Even when you fight with your loved one, remeber that somebody has to give in and be the bigger person. If nobody steps down, the conflict continues, which is pointless and exhuasting. Letting go of anger and forgivness are the key to peaceful co-existence. I've always loved a quote by Siddhartha Buddha that says "Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned."
 So,  if you feel that sudden chemical rush like you're about to explode, wait a minute before acting out or saying anything. Let those bad vibes wash away.

Being alive and able to experience perks of life is a privilege, especially in the reference to the system we live in. Which I don’t think is fair and needs to be reexamined and improved.  I’m not going to get into this right now but mean is that in some part of the world people would love to have some of the opportunitities we may take for granted. IN some part of the world being thirsty and hungry is a normality. That’s sad because every human being should have an equal access to natural resources which we all equally share. For some, life is hell from the minute they are born, either because of poverty or physical disabilities.

“Unconditional love is scarce.” I encourage everyone to count their blessings not only to honor our health, and those important to us but also to pay respect for the underprivileged who would love to have some of the privileges we are so accustomed to.

I wish you all health and love :) 

let's hope for revolution

Wikileaks protest. WikiLeaks have released more classified documents than the rest of the world press combined.

is this fair?

 innocent civilians die everyday

 Julian Assange the co-founder of WikiLeaks

 American soldier is holding a wounded child.
This shouldn't be happening. we are in a intellectual era
with todays technology everyone should live happy and fullfilled. wars are the bloodiest business  a man can engage in.