outsider

                                - France.1990

 I've lived in many parts of the world; Mongolia, Siberia, Scandinavia, Western and Eastern Europe, before I had turned 7 i had been to all these places. My parents worked in a circus as acrobats and were on a new contract in a different country every year. This is how I grew up, in a traveling circus, colorful and loud and always entertaining. There was a sense of artistic freedom, finincial independancy and fame amongs the circus people. When it was showtime I notice people get into thier characters. They had morphed from thier regular selfs to star performers conscious of hundred something people  I had watched  my parents onstage, where they presented themselves as imaginary characters, seduce the audiance and perform acrobatic tricks.  I even had a chance to travel to North Pole when we were stationed in Sweden.
When it was time for me to start school, I moved to south-east of Poland to live with my grandparents.  I lived up there till the eight grade, then my parents and I emigrated to US.  I was both sad and kind of excited.
On the first day of school, I missed my bus, tripped over a rock and fell down to the ground.
I got mud all over my new t-shirt, had to go back home and change which why I missed the bus.  My parents had to borrow a car from our friends with whom we were living with, and drove me to school.  When I finally got to school, the “living in a different reality”  hit me. Everybody was looked and sounded different from what I had been accustom to. What a trip..I asked a student for directions to my class and with eyes wide open I headed toward the building. That very first day, I met a Japanese exchange student who was a pleasure to meet. We later became friends with another exchange student, a Colombian born German, and the three of us had a blast getting to know each other.  We became good friends and made that freshman year go by so fast. Florida is beautiful if you are into tropical forests, white beaches. and giant hairy spiders ^_^  Unfortunately my parents soon announced that we were moving again, this time to California. So at the end of my freshman year, we drove from Florida to Cali. We passed through

  Alabama, Mississippi,Texas, New Mexico and Arizona...to a hot& dry, farm town in Kern County, my new home for the next 10 years. I was lucky that a very sweet girl, my besti, had just moved to there too.  We had a lot in common and before we even met in PE beginning of sophomore year, we both lived in the same apartment complex the whole summer. We had lunch together with our friends, since the day we first met, till the last day of senior year. How romantic *sigh* hehe. I love my friends J Was it destiny or coincidence,? Who knows... I wasn’t the kind of person back then, maybe because of my mixed background, that was understood right away, so for me to have found my soul sisters, is a cool thing.  Love your friends because without friends there would be no music:-) That’s a quote which leaves room for interpretation.  I know what it's like to be the outsider, to feel like you are looking at people through a glass. You want to join them and have fun with them, but you can't.