This year has flew by so fast. Maybe too fast.. This reminds me that time truely is a wasting and I need to do something with it, something that makes sense other than the ordinary. It's a little challenging to figure this one out when my number 1 priority is raising my daughter. I know my main status is mother and i can always be a better mom, but how do i silance this anxiousness in my head that won't leave me to rest, which craves adrenaline and adventures. Maybe this is how my mom felt when she had to face a dilemma; either work at the traveling circus as a star performer or stay with me at my grandmas house and be a stay-at-home mom. well she chose to be a international circus artist, and perhaps as much as i like to blame her for abandonment, she was just as restless as I am today, and have been for most of my life.
Take it easy... I am not really sure how to do it. But I have seen people in that situations. The grandparents have retired & can full time enjoy baby sitting their grand kid. Let your mom retire. Your dad is still working. Then focus on finishing school & working. Lilly will be ok seeing you in the morning & at night. schooling in day time. Go home to see lilly, then work at night.
ReplyDeleteMake sure you always get 7-8hours of sleep because for me, time goes faster when not having enough sleep, means not enough energy to finish the tasks. Having good sleep makes you feel you have energy to finish things, makes you feel having plenty of time. So cut the hours of night work. set days for relaxation/family day & your day for adventures.
You can do it...